I put on a better act with you than I do with everyone else

Try not to let you see how much of a mess I am right now

But I still love the moments when my cracks show through and I slip and let you see just a bit of my current struggle

and your instantaneous reaction is of trying to reach me any way you can. Of minutes after you read my message to text and say that you're calling as soon as you can. To be dealing with other crises but to ask me if I'm okay no really am I okay.

I love you for that.

And I love you for calling me spontaneously, even though we talked earlier today, just to tell me how good it was to talk to me. How much you love me and miss me.

God damn, I hate this distance thing, but fuck it if I don't love you more every day we're apart.