I just had a thought

I may never forgive you for how you treated me last year, but I also may never forget how unendingly sweet you were to me while I was drunk.

When I needed you to hold me and stroke my hair, you weren't there. But when I didn't even ask... there you were.

Contemplating

The after effects of drinking
May outweigh drunken benefits

I sat down last night
And drank glass after glass of wine
Plus some vodka

I was fizzy and happy and silly
And would not stop talking
Truth or dare had no consequences

Until I saw the fear on my best friend's face
And my stomach was not as accepting and loving as I was.

Lying awake listening to your heart pound

Sorry for the lack of posting

I have been busy
Thinking and crying
Missing and yearning
And overall ignoring the important things in life.