Broke.

Writing this down so I don't forget.

She called me last night when we were on our way home from the bars. She was still in a bar. And she was grouchy and not having a good time and she called me.

"I miss you so much," she said. "Being here with people that I don't care about only throws into focus the people that I should be with."

And I listened. While she told me all the things she missed about me. My heart broke a little more.

"I don't belong here anymore," I told her.

"You know you belong with me, right?" she responded.

We said things we shouldn't have.

Like how her leaving broke something. Like how she misses me every day.

"I love you so much; I miss you."

And then she had to go.

I packed up my things and drove to a house that was not my own to fall asleep next to a person that was not her. And I cried the whole way there.

Because what else am I supposed to do?