Weekends like this are pretty representative of my life as a whole right now. Some disappointments, some heartbreak, some loneliness, but a lot of fun. Pushing myself not to be a hermit 100% of the time, but also allowing myself to be alone when I needed to.

I was surrounded by people I love this weekend and that's what's important. It's important that I have people here who like my company. It's important that I was able to say today, "If I stayed here for another year, I would be alright with that." It's something that I need to wrap my head around as a possibility. It needs to be accepted.

I'm still focused on "enough" and trying to know that I am that. And I do believe that the events of this year thus far are going to help me in pursuing this goal. The place the girl and I are at right now is not a good one, but I think it's a necessary one. She's still a good influence, still treating me right. Pushing me to my best. And my best right now needs to be that I am enough. On my own. What we're dealing with is absolutely pushing me towards that.

This weekend was a good period of time of getting towards enough. Because enough, for me, means dealing with those disappointments, heartbreak, loneliness, and still being okay. I am enough.

And, today, I sat in the sunlight and read an old favorite and felt good. Felt enough.