"It's very important, at this point, for everyone to know where they stand. It's important to me that she [Oregon Girl] knows that Best Friend is the most important person in my life. That there are things Best Friend knows that she doesn't. Because that's how it should be at this point."
Something that I said to a friend of mine earlier this week.
I know Best Friend knows how important she is to me, but even then I don't feel like I tell her enough how much her presence in my life means to me. How, even when everything hurts, I am comforted by her. No one knows me better. No one loves me quite the way she does.
When she travels an hour and a half (one way) on an evening when she has work the next day to see me. When she texts me more than usual, not just checking up on me but distracting me with benign (IMPORTANT) conversations. Makes me CDs. We make plans to see each other soon.
All of that is helping me more than I could tell her. And knowing that she needs me too: that it's good for her well-being as well as mine to do these things.
I accused her a year ago for sometimes phoning it in, for sometimes not trying as hard as I do in regards to supporting each other. And I regret saying that. It was a mistake. I was wrong. I'm so so sorry.
No one supports me better than you do.
And I can't wait to see you, and I can't wait to see where life takes us, and I can't wait to be at each others' sides every step of the way.
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